Conversations for the record
Last Monday when we arrived at school, I had the following conversation with Aggie as we were getting out of the van. She was very positive and upbeat the entire time.
Aggie: Mom, you’re the best mom in whole world and I’m never going to let you die!
Me: Well, honey, actually God controls when we live and when we die.
Aggie: But, if you die and Daddy dies, who will take care of us? Will we have to take care of ourselves?
Me: No. We have lots of family.
Aggie: Oh yeah, we have LOTS of family.
Me: So there will be someone to take care of you. What made you think of that?
Aggie: It was just in my mind.
Me: Well, I know, but I wonder what made you think of that?
Aggie: God.
(I just smiled and so did she. Can’t argue with that answer, huh?)
Then the next day, Tuesday, as we were getting ready in the bathroom she just looked at me and said:
Mom, I’m sorry about your cancer and your surgery.
Then again on the way home Tuesday, yet another “C” conversation. Munchkin had turned on the light in the back of the van and the other two kids were tattling on her. I told her to turn it off because they often forget that the light is on and it stays on for long periods of time. I explained that she needed to turn it off because it could run the battery down and the following conversation ensued:
Aggie: Yeah, if the battery runs out we won’t have any light when it gets dark.
Me: Well, actually it will run the battery down in the van.
Aggie: And the van won’t work?
Me: Right, and then we’d have to walk and I’m not up for that.
Aggie: Yeah, because you had cancer for a few days and then you had surgery for a few days and then you had cancer and you have to rest A LOT!
I just kind of laughed and agreed.
On the Saturday after Thanksgiving we were looking at Seth’s blog and he had links to pictures of the kids. McGrooter and Aggie were sitting with me in the chair and we were pulling up the pictures. He also mentioned a coworker’s friend who passed away the Wednesday before Thanksgiving and had a link to her blog. The kids asked to click on the link and I did. Then we had yet another conversation that I probably should have avoided, but didn’t.
Mc: Who is that?
Me: That’s a friend of someone Daddy works with.
Mc: It looks like she is in the trees.
Me: Well, actually she is in heaven now.
Mc: What happened to her?
Me: She went to be with the Lord on Wednesday.
Mc: Why did she die?
Me: Well, she had cancer.
Aggie: Does that mean you are going to die?
Me: Uh, hers was much worse than mine.
Aggie: Oh, ok.
So needless to say, my kids are very in tune to what is going on around here. They seem to be doing well with it for now. Hopefully the next treatment won’t be bad and they won’t see me as sick.